dear lauren: better

dear lauren,

i need to be better at a lot of things.

like, a lot.

a better student

a better basketball player

a better writer
better at not procrastinating

a better singer

a better piano player

a better young woman
better at saying "i love you"

a better friend

a better daughter.

a better sister.

there's a lot.

sometimes i freak out because i don't know how to be all that. but i'm going to try. 

it scares me when i think, i'm the only sister you have. i'm supposed to be your role model. i'm supposed to be the girl you think is so cool, that you want to be just like. i'm supposed to be the one you come to when you have problems.

right now, i'm not there.

but it want to be there so badly.

lauren, i'm going to be a better sister. it's not going to happen overnight. but i have some ideas about where to start.

ways i can make you happy

- leave notes on your bed

- do perler beads with you

- have a disney movie night together

- draw you a picture

- make fairy houses with you

- make up a duet on the piano

- bake cookies

we're going to get there.

love, nicole